Do any of you watch This Is Us? It's so wonderful! I never watched Parenthood, and a lot of people compare it to Parenthood. I truly cry on and off throughout the entire show, happy tears and sad tears. After having G my hormones are still all over the place, which leads me to my case of the "baby blues."
Let me preface this by saying there are many different cases of what people refer to as the "baby blues." Some are much more severe then others, but ALL cases should be openly discussed and talked about amongst friends, family, and with your doctors, etc.
I know most of the sweet mamas I've talked to have all experienced the baby blues to a certain degree, and if you haven't then that's ok too. What gets me is that this a normal, natural and OK feeling to have after you have a baby. It doesn't mean you're weird or different, it's ok to have and more important to talk about it to others.
You've been growing this baby in your belly, you give birth, and then you leave the hospital and your life is nothing like it was before. Your body doesn't feel like it used too, you're sleep deprived, and your hormones are an absolute basket case.
I remember staring at people walking on the streets 28 floors below and thinking, "they have a normal life." And also thinking, "why the hell didn't anyone tell me about this." The thing is most of my mom friends did, but you simply don't get it until you go through have a baby. It's impossible to understand prior.
It took me a few weeks to adjust to our "new normal." Each night I would get this heavy wave of anxiety and fear that would hit around 5pm and I was so nervous about how that night would go with G. I would just cry, breakdown, and straight up bawl.
Poor R was so sweet and so worried I wasn't ok. They warn you of postpartum emotions and signs all the time, but don't tell you these other feelings of anxiety are normal, happen, and then pass. Thankfully my mom was with me the first week and a half, and she assured me and him that these feelings were completely normal. Although as you go through it you feel so out of sorts and the furthest thing from normal, both emotionally and physically.
Everyday got a little better, and the weather didn't help me because it was SO dreary and rainy for the first two weeks after I gave birth. I would say I felt like I kind of had a grip on things and my hormones were a bit more stabilized(said no new mom ever) by about 4 weeks.
I write all this to say, motherhood is amazing, it's the most challenging job, and everyday is different. But even though you technically become a "mother" overnight, you don't. You've got to adapt and adjust to this brand new lifestyle and learn this new baby, and he or she has to learn you! As I'm just about 6 months into being a mom(still a "greenhorn") I can attest to how the love grows, grows, and grows, with each day. It's a love that hurts. I look at pictures of him before bed each night, because I miss him(and he's in the room beside me).